The Next Stop

I think I'm near that point in life when I just really want to move on with my life already. My job is such a life drainer, what little energy I have is used to sound enthusiastic to get me through the countless rejections from people all across Australia... It sort of saddens me to think that there are so many people who hate me for what I do; I mean I know they don't hate me specifically, but they have no where else to direct their anger so someone has to bear the brunt. I really do want to move on and get a proper job, but I don't have that enthusiasm to start my own projects etc. to be able to apply for a job. I'm a little scared that I'll end up stuck in the call centre, because there are a lot of people who work who have stayed on for several years and counting. I really don't want to be them. I don't know how they've managed to stay on so long- I don't know how I've managed so far. But I'm really think I need to step up my game. Jasper isn't any better than me either, we're both just stuck in a rut.
There are so many things I want to do; first and foremost, I of course want to be traveling, but after that I really want to be able to move out to a better place. After that, I think I'll feel less cluttered about my life and be willing to look for a proper job.

I'm really looking forward to December though, I'll be on holiday for a week at least in Victor Harbour, which I'm just longing for at the moment. And Jasper's friend has invited us to stay over at their parents villa in Thailand somewhere, which looks amazing. I'm willing to go, but I guess the problem is if Jasper can afford it. I think he tried convincing his mum to pay for it as a birthday/christmas thing, but that didn't work out... Well who knows. It would be sometime early next year though, so I'm still hoping >__<

Well I'll just leave it at that for now cos I have work in an hour :( Hopefully today's shift will go fast..