God I think I'm getting old T_T I have the urge to look up old chinese songs. I want to sing karaoke to these songs. I really am one of those people who like to live in the past I think. Nostalgic feelings... especially remembering those nice sunny summers, awesome springs, cool autumns... I don't know why things feel so different now, maybe climate change? But these kind of things don't seem as awesome as they did a few years ago.

Everyone busy studying for exams? Good luck! I'll be relatively free, so if you want to catch up, just give me a call :P Need some way of occupying my time anyway... this week and maybe a few days of next week will be the only time where I need to concentrate on my homework, and a few days before the 16th for my exam... I think I'm talking in a really weird rushed way that I'm not making much sense for myself. Oh well. That's for you to read and me to write. Hahah.

You know what I'm scared of? Saying the word lol. In real life I mean. I'm not saying if others say it, it's a bad thing, but it makes me cringe to think about how much the internet has affected me. I think I might have said it once in my life out loud. Oh the shame. I really don't want it to become part of my vocabulary. I've been close to saying it many times actually, a lot of the time, I think I'm still stuck in my online mode :/ Sad sad sad. I should get out more...

Damn my teacher. He has the time to send an email to the whole class but not reply to my email?? Grr it'll take him less than a minute to answer... >:(

Thanks for the encouragement guys:) Except I've kinda given up on it. I can't make it work properly. T__T Here's a picture of the stuff that I have to go through:

I barely understand all that by the way. There are only a few components that I can't get working, mainly stopping the movieclips from popping up after 60 seconds when it ends the level, getting the score on the next level page to show up, and I think lastly is the negative points to work. There were other features that I was meant to include, but that's kind of impossible with the current state of my game. Eg. losing the game in the final level if you get hit by a spitball, creating difficulties etc. So many stuff that I've left out. I really want to know how the IT students go; this should be their territory so I bet they managed to get their stuff sorted.

Here's the link for my crappy game: http://www.swfcabin.com/open/1306391806

You won't be able to hear any music because it's meant to be linked to a folder with all the sound files. I'd embed the sounds in, except it would increase the file a lot so... but anyway, music 2 was meant to be the music that kt helped compose for me :):) big kudos to you kt! x]


So just before, I was curious about the twins friends list. I wondered who had more friends. Who would have thought that they pretty much have the same amount of friends XD 527 and 528. Lol.

At the moment I am really really tempted to give up on my flash game. Honestly, I don't really know what I'm doing, and I have around 2 days to figure it out. So far I have characters popping out of different places except I don't know how to keep track of score, timer and a few other things... Why couldn't the faculty just give us a walkthrough on how to do this? T__T I don't think I'll actually finish my game at this point, so I'm feeling less motivated to even attempt doing the things that I can manage to make.

Does anyone else think it's kind of awkward when you send someone a friend request on facebook and then they don't accept/decline (which I then usually cancel the request), but then around a few week or so later, they send you a friend request? -.-" It's not like I even really talked to her in class since I sent her that request, so I wonder what changed her mind? I only sent it because I thought she was nice when we were doing that student exercise thing in class a while back. Bah.

XD My seminar teacher just replied to an email few minutes after I sent him it. Lol you know what he said? He was impressed by my hard work! Very nice of him to say that, although sadly it isn't true. Also said thanks for helping my friend who is currently still in a wheel chair. Hasn't been easy for him I'm sure seeing as he misses out on a lot of the classes because it's inconvenient. But that email made me smile. Hopefully I won't disappoint him tomorrow in my Jap oral! XD

You know what's really funny? When people keep assuming I was born in China. Sometimes you can tell people are curious and are somehow led to believe that I was born in China. Sure my appearance may suggest such, but judging by my accent (?) I thought it would be hard to mistake where I came from. Even some of the chinese people think I was born in China... Personally I think it's strange, seeing as I'm always hanging around people with other ethnicity, and I'm constantly talking in English... not trying to stereotype here, but a lot of chinese exchange students tend to stick with their own if you know what I mean.

Because I am so awesome, last night I was having fun painting my nails. Result:

Wow I have chubby fingers... But yes, watermelon. The green is a bit messed up because I didn't let it dry long enough, so it kind of has fabric imprints in it.
Ok just now I painted the white bit to make it look more like a watermelon x] lol I really should go eat breakfast...

In a weird mood today. I think today was just one of those good days. So very rare XD And I'm feeling very sociable at the moment. Except no one's online really... Dang maybe I should have gone to that party. Except it's one of those drinking at the pub kind of party. And I'd just stick out like a sore thumb in a place like that. One of the guys called asking why I wasn't there. I said I was meant to be doing work. Lol I should have said I was doing work. Bah. Slip of the tongue. I think the guys were probably bored because they didn't really know anyone there. Another reason why I didn't go I guess. Don't you hate that? Being in a place totally unfamiliar with strangers? And you have to make small talk to people...urgh. I just suck at being nice.

Listening to green day's american idiot. It's got me feeling all pumped. Waiting..waiting.. stupid final cut pro hurry up and finish rendering my file already! Hmph. I'm hungry. Good news! Apparently the mark for the video I'm currently editing (the blooper one) is a group mark! So whatever we submit together as a group will be our mark! We only have to make our own edit to show that we know how to use final cut and that we've contributed to the group... yay :D Really happy about that because I don't think I'll be able to pull off something decent for that class. And there's this girl in my group who's already done a bit, and it looks fantastic! Don't think I could top that. Oh you know what's really hard? Finding music. Especially for video projects. Usually there's some sort of flow/story in films right? Music should follow it right? At least that's what I think. Music can help build a story. But I have no clue what to use. Sigh....

Blooper

Lol this is one of the bloopers from filming... lol I totally ruined that XD Don't judge me!


(This took forever to upload...remind me next time to compress the video -.-")

Last few days I've been meaning to make a post because I've had a lot going through my mind, except now I can't remember a single thing. First off I'll just say that I'm less stressed knowing that I've already gotten all the filming done for the projects due next week. All I have to do is edit, which I thought would take me forever, but judging by how I work, I could get all of them done in two days. Sweet. Next I have to think about my Jap oral, which I'm a tad worried about. I have to say 10 things about a trip. Trip. Hmm the only one that comes to mind is the china one, and that was nearly half a year ago. Would it be alright if I used that? And I'm worried how I'll form these sentences; can't ask the teacher to check over it because it wouldn't be fair. Kt if you're reading this, any chance if I could run it by you on Saturday? :D And I really don't know what to say. Last year I went to China. It was fun. It was very busy.... yeah I'll have to work on that. And try memorising them too... you'd think that after a semester of Jap, I'd be able to fluently say stuff without having to look stuff up. But I feel the need to constantly check if I'm saying it right or whatever...
Yes ok my file is nearly finished rendering so I'll leave it at that today. Oh and go check out my vid mmd bad news on fb and give me some feedback? :D

Apologies in advance because I think my next few posts will be about me stressing about my video work as well as my flash game.

So, yesterday, woke up realy early (5.30am) because I couldn't sleep due to how nervous/worried I was about everything. Eventually headed out to South Yarra, to go to some guy's place I just met two days before :S My friends were late because they slept in or whatever, so I arrived first. O________O Just wow. I didn't expect his family to be loaded, because he house was bloody massive. Like the one's in the movies. And they have lifts. Lifts. Seriously. He gave me a tour of the house, which was pretty cool, although it doesn't have any of that warmth feeling like a family home. (no clutter I guess XD) So when most of the guys turned up, we ended up on the couches and just sitting there bumming out and being tired (although I was kind of freaking out because I thought we should have been doing something..) and ended up waiting till my other friend came. When he did, we started setting up, moving furniture around etc. Honestly, I don't usually do any of that stuff; lighting, directing- I really don't know how the light should hit the wall and stuff. I wouldn't mind working behind the camera, I think that'd be fun, but I already had the job of the interviewer, so kind of not possible. For some reason this time around, I kept stuffing up my lines, despite the fact that I was reading right off the script. I think I was put off by how good our new actor was. XD We were able to get a full run through of the interview without having to stop. The only thing I could complain would be that we didn't get any shots of the interview on different angles. I think that would have been one of the fundamental things that you'd need, but I guess I could work around it. The guy also does this awesome 'old spice' act. >___<
We actually ended up finishing a lot earlier than I thought we would- around 6pm. I thought we'd end around 11pm because their shoot they did the day before went till then. Thank god it didn't because I wouldn't have a clue as to how I would have gotten home without having my dad to pick me up. So, we then ended up watching Source Code, which had its similarities to Inception I think. I didn't think it was great, because I was still confused for certain aspects. It makes sense, but then it doesn't. How can some guy recreate a world with his mind alone? It was like he was predicting the future in a way, how does he know all the possibilities? Confusing sentence is confusing.
Crap, it's nearly 9pm and I haven't studied at all for my Jap listening tomorrow.... Ok signing off.

Having no luck with my game scripting atm :'( I think I'll be close to breaking down if I don't start getting things out of the way. I really just want to give up and kind of yell at people, but that won't do any good.

Reading these messages on this site: http://letterstocrushes.com/ So cute. It makes me wonder how many of these hold true for me. I just wish I could skip ahead of time though and see what the future holds for me...Wish I could just get lost in thoughts of love and not have to worry about anything else. But with reality, I have to be realistic. 不过。。。有时侯，我真得想真心爱一个人。我想有一个人我可以靠近拥抱一下，不用想那么多事。真心爱一个人可以永远得到幸福吗？我真得想知道。。。

EDIT* lol I just found this one hilarious...
http://letterstocrushes.com/letter/94544#disqus_thread
Read the first reply.

So the doco yesterday.... erm. It was an interesting doco I guess. I would have liked it better if they didn't have to strip halfway through the interviews. But the creep who has pretty much next to no respect for women, and the guy who watches porn on 6 monitors in his car just... wth man. Eurgh. And most of the guys looked normal, I wouldn't have expected some of them to be the type who'd do that kind of stuff. That kind of scares me.
In other news, the last few days of filming have been a complete, utter waste. Yesterday, we were trying to capture the film onto the computer to then realise that lo and behold- no audio! Crap. Fuck. WTH are we going to do??? We actually said on one of the days shooting 'did you turn the mic on?'. We were so relieved when we found out that it was on, but because the camera was shoddy, it made a filming all blurry and probably screwed up the audio jack too. Now we have to refilm tomorrow, although I have no details as to what's going on at the moment. Why did this have to happen???
*EDIT
Now all my other class films are in jeopardy. WTH IS THIS HAPPENINGGGGGGGGGGG. Filming the week the project is due, and filming possibly two days before the due date, with me editing. WTH PEOPLE. THIS IS GETTING WAY TOO CLOSE. EVEN I DON'T THINK I CAN HANDLE IT, AND I CAN HANDLE A LOT. /shoots self

Filming

God I am so tired of filming T_________T Today went to uni around 9.30am, and we finished around 6.00pm... So many bloody takes.
We started off having a lot of problems with lighting, we had to move the furniture and basically clean up one of our members apartment. Sorry to say this, but she's really kind of pissing me off now. She really is hard to work with. She's quite bossy, and likes to be in control, but so often she isn't present when we need some input or something. Same girl I was talking about last time for the screen play... anyway, the rest of the crew have been around filming while she was off doing something and didn't come back till around 4.30pm... and we were getting a bit tired and restless ourselves because our friend kept messing up his lines... and I was getting really annoyed myself because I was the 'interviewer', so I had to keep repeating my questions. We knew he was trying hard, but he kept laughing, or just stopping because he stuffed up. None of us made too big of a deal out of it, as we can understand that it is a lot of pressure when you have a whole bunch of people watching you, you're half improvising and reading off the laptop screen. But when she joined us, she kind of just slept on the floor while we continued working, and kind of burst out complaining how hard it could be to say the line. Sure, the guy was making a lot of mistakes, but I don't think she has the right to say something like that, especially all the other harsh things she said. And yes, I'm sure you probably could have done a better job, but you weren't exactly there now were you? If we chose her to be the actor, I'm sure we'd have ended up waiting for her again...
There was this awful moment as well, where my friend asked if the mic was on (this was probably around 4-5pm ish). I had a heart attack right there man, I swear to God, if that thing wasn't on, I would have given up for the day. Thank God it was though. Seriously. But there are so many things that aren't up to my expectations, and I'm hoping, *hoping* that all the footage that we took is good. I'm just a little worried how all of this will turn out... honestly, it's probably going to look like one of those shoddy student films rather than something decent...
Really just in a foul mood now.

How on earth do people manage to stay still enough to study? I'm finding it very hard at the moment, and it's computer work for goodness sake. I'm more or less done I think, but there are some bits and pieces that I have to add in for good measure. (Doing my flash assignment btw. Adding sounds). You know how hard it is to find sound effects? Really hard. They either cost money, or they're really crappy recorded sounds. And sometimes, I just don't know what type of sound I'm looking for. Like, I can't assign a full on orchestral music for a close button now can I?

So today I watched Black Swan. It was not scary as everyone made it out to be. I was under the impression that it was some full on scary scenes or something, but it wasn't. But it sure was weird. Those hallucinations that she keeps having would be pretty scary I imagine; bordering on reality and imaginary events, and you see Nina slowly losing her mind... wow. I won't say anything else, in case I spoil it for anyone who wants to watch it but it certainly was an interesting film.

Next week for friday's film class, I'm wondering if I should go. My teacher plans to screen a documentary on the pornography industry. -______-" He said it was a little confronting, and the ending is pretty much a porn scene (but he'd skip it unless we wanted to watch it LOL), and honestly, I'm not looking forward to it. God he shows the weirdest films in class. We just finished this movie called The Magician, which is about this hit man who kidnaps this guy but filmed in a mokumentary sort of way. It's pretty good I think in terms of portrayal of the main character, and how it feels so realistic that you actually do kind of believe the events that take place. Some of the scenes are quite random though, there's this one scene where you see the hit man and the kidnapped man just sitting at a bench table in a park, eating some burgers.
Although some of these movies/documentaries that have been shown in class are interesting, I honestly don't think it'll catch on like my teacher said. Unless people are able to produce a good story, I don't think a lot of people like watching poor quality video footage and crap audio. The only kind of big budget mokumentary I've liked was District 9, but then again, I love watching those end of the world type of movies haha.
So right now I'm going to head off and watch Inglorious Bastards. Let's see how that goes then.

Movies

Soooooo... last few days I've been watching a few movies to keep me going. So far I've watched Up, The Lion King, Corpse Bride and today I watched Scott Pilgrim vs. the World. I hadn't seen any of them except for the lion king (which I haven't seen in years), so it was somewhat refreshing. Up was so beautiful, I loved the narrative at the start- so cute!<3 All of them were fun to watch, I can't wait to watch all the other movies I have planned XD Does anyone have some more movies to suggest? I just want to increase my film repertoire so I have a better grasp on the industry. Pity I can't use my anime/drama knowledge because mine's quite extensive xD

Today I went to monash clayton campus for the first time. Oh my god that place is huge. o.O This is where all the funding is going seriously. So I was there to hand in my form for the free study tour to Japan. So excited >_< Just imagine! If I get in, I get to go to Japan!!!! One of my dreams! Honestly probably not the best time to go (with the disasters that have happened); Japan is probably still going to be rebuilding itself again. Also would have wanted to be fluent in Japanese too... lol I'm talking like as if I'm already chosen X'D It's probably really hard to get into though... I hope my current level of jap won't put me at a disadvantage? Also my academic record... not bad but not great either. GPA currently 2.5 because it dropped a bit because of last year's web authoring -.- I wish we could resubmit the academic record after this semester- I know I've done better this semester D: They said they won't judge academics, but then, what are they judging on?? Well, I guess all I can do is wait.

EDIT*- oh crap apparently only one person will be selected from Monash. o.O So even if I do get selected, I'll be alone D:

Soo tired. Just saying now, I will be continuing the typing in chinese thing, but only occasionally. Right now, I'm not really in the mood to think in Chinese.
Sooooo... yay I'm not doing my screen play :D:D Good thing because it would have been hard to film I think. So I joined another screen play instead. It's more of a comedic film thing, so it's not too complex. We have 4 people per group, each member with a specific production role. I ended up as editor (god knows why -.-") although I think I would have preferred being the storyboard person. Well I guess being the editor, I have the power to cut out what I don't want, so I can remove any parts I don't like XD I'm a bit worried about my friend (who's the storyboard person- there is some technical name for it but I can't remember) how she might approach this, because I think there might be some unnecessary zooms of random things like the hand opening the door (to show that the couple has entered maccas) etc.. Also, she kind of broke down today with all the stress that she's been dealing with... honestly I don't know what to do in those situations. I suck at comforting even though I'm relatively close friends with her, what can I say? I know how she's feeling, and I tell her that she needs to take things more slowly and stop putting so much pressure on herself; I'm glad there was this other friend of hers who helped out and took her to the bathroom... Sometimes I think this makes me a really bad friend... Sure I understand how a person might feel, but I have no way of making them feel any better. I personally would feel better if I was left alone, but that's not the same for everyone.

And I think I might need to start planning what I need to do in these last few weeks of uni- so apparently I do have a Japanese oral, and that I might have to reconsider doing Jap as an elective to do something multimedia (which I really don't want to)... one of the units that I'm doing well in too... received above 90% in all my class tests, and got 89.5/100 for my mid semester. And I barely have to do much revising for Jap, which is a bonus. (not trying to sound so conceited XD) Also have to think about all 3 video projects which might become a bit of a problem depending on time... and also that big big problem for my game. In the lectures they don't teach you any of the actual coding for how to make the moles pop up or anything- what the hell am I supposed to do with all this other stuff that you've taught us but I don't even really want to put it in my game???
Sorry for this crap load of ranting but it's gotta go somewhere.

Oh- also I'm going to apply for a free study tour of Japan near the end of the year XD All expenses paid, just have to write up a 3000 word essay and do some presentation. I would totally love to be given the chance to go, but what are the chances? I'm sure a lot of people are going to apply for it too. But it definitely would be a good experience.