Lol so ok, my hair does not look anything like the picture that i linked >_<"

Yeah...there's me. =.= I think I kind of chickened out a bit... maybe next time? ^^" Got my sister to cut it for me. Annoying thing is that one side looks totally different from the other side because my hair is still a bit curly from my perm. So half a bob cut thing and the other half more choppy and uneven. =.=" And I wish my fringe was longer so I could put it to the side... well give it a month and I should be able to push it to the side... Wahh I want my hair back now T_T lol oh god you should have seen how much of my hair was chopped off. I have so much hair O_O

OMG I CAN'T WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK IS OVER!!! I swear to god, I'm so sick of these assignments TT_TT I need to hang out with people pronto after then! I need to see some school friends for a while... kind of sick of hanging out with my uni friends a bit =.=" Seeing as half of them consist of guys, all they can talk about is there EvE and LoL games... =.=" I wouldn't mind if I played it myself, but seeing as I don't... no fricking clue. Besides, it'd be nice to hang out with some girls, well at least more than one. And to be honest, she tends to get a bit... carried away when there are guys around?^^" As in she would easily get distracted by guys... which kind of pisses me off, especially yesterday, seeing as I was working on our group assignment, and she'd be skyping...=.=" Generally she's a really good worker, but..well guys. =.=
Anyway, when this all blows over, I think I'll start talking on skype more with you guys, as skyping has mainly happened only with my uni friends because of all the work.. I feel like such a bad friend when I see you guys online but I don't really say anything ^^" Sorry~~~ that will change when I get things done!
At the moment I really want to cut my hair again, my fringe is getting really long again (just past my nose). I'm thinking something along the lines of maybe longish in front, and gradually gets a bit shorter at the back. I'm not too sure if I can pull it off.
So sorta like this?


Probs not that short at the back but yeah... so maybe this weekend. I said I'd let Lucy do it, so we'll see how that goes :/ if she stuffs up, I have a few days to grow out a bit of hair at least X'D

I'm obviously procrastinating, but I feel like I have to update now so I'm doing something 'constructive'. OMG I have the sudden urge to play some video games T_T WHYYYY

Marks

So today I received my marks for my Ad agency portfolio. =.= Worst marks ever. 20/40. CRAP. Thing is, all of my friends didn't do so well either, despite theirs being x10 better than mine, the highest mark was 24/40 in my group. Here's an email my teacher sent around:

"I have just looked at the second exercise 'Ad Agency' and the results are very disappointing. Many of you have not passed and will need to resubmit.

Some general notes:

1. This is meant to be an ad agency - cutting edge, striking, sexy etc - most designs were just plain boring if not stupid."

That's just some of the email which I found most...harsh. I don't think it's our fault as students though, considering all the briefs we've received have been pretty vague, and it wasn't that clear that it was all about the design -.-" I mean, in class we were taught jquery (coding stuff), so natural, we'd assume that that was the whole point of the assignment.

The teacher has given us the chance to resubmit, but at this point, I'm not sure if I want to. It's stressful enough as it is to finish all these other major assignments plus a 2500 essay (which I still haven't started...2 more weeks D:). I think a lot of people were bummed about their marks for this assignment. Damn, I hope this isn't what they expect of us next year as well... I'm so dead.

Sorry for the last post... just been a bit down... probably all the hormones speaking but, at times I do feel like that.

It's so close to end of uni now- looking forward to it a lot. I've got... 4 more things to do now? One essay (really not looking forward to that one), group film project, group website project and finally group interactive story project. Done all the filming for the film thing, now onto editing. I'm hoping that won't be too hard, because it's a mixture of stop motion with actual video, so we have to edit the photos and video to keep the consistency for both...

I'm really worried about this essay though :/ "How and why did postmodern photographers seek to question the relation between photographic representation and the real?"
I could choose to create my own topic, but I don't know what I'd want to write about for photography. And I'm not sure what to look up for books either... Borrowed two books, but I don't think they're really relevant to my topic. I'm going to send an email to my tutor and see if I can get any help in that area..:/

I'm in this weird sad mood again... even some stranger could see it. Just sitting on the tram waiting to get off at Flinders, and an old man asks me if I'm alright. Am I? I don't know. I've been trying not to think too much the last few days but the same thoughts keep coming back to me. Why do I have to be such a girl? I wish I was someone else. Someone who's pretty, smart, great personality- someone who feels great about themselves without ever having to doubt themselves. Sometimes I wish people would acknowledge me a bit more, give me credit when credit is due, rather than treat me as some sort of extra person on the side who you happen to know. I don't need the spotlight on me all the time, just once in a while would be nice. I'm still here. Don't forget me just because there's someone who is more fun, smart, amazing than me. I don't want to fade into the background,becoming nothing more than an object to be used. You know what is amazing though? How easily people can ignore what I have to say, whether it be something small or something personal, anything; I'm just ignored. Or, somehow people turn it into something about themselves. I do what I do, I listen. I listen. I listen. I suppress my feelings even further. Sometimes I just think, why do I bother? Just keep it all in, no one cares anyway.