Ignore my current layout... stupid me I forgot to back up so things are a bit messed up. I'll have to fix it when I actually have time to edit the html. In the mean time, I guess you can just comment on my posts if you have anything to say.

Uni starting again has been... well not fun. It's just a reminder of how much I have to work this semester. T^T There are a few worries for me... Mainly my project for this semester, my animation. It's 56 sec or so long, 12 fps (frame per second) so that equates to 672 frames. So I have to draw around that many frames within the next 12 weeks? T^T It's a big ask I think, cos I have to draw them manually, and then edit them in Photoshop by adding colour and textures... so animating 3 characters and all the background.... I'm seriously hoping I can pull it off cos then that would be amazing. It doesn't help how my teacher is being seriously picky about everything, as I'm changing things around to suit his preference seeing as he is marking it... of course I can't make everything suit him or else I don't think I'll be able to achieve my final goal. >.>  I don't think it'd be impossible to do this animation if it weren't for my other units really.
Theory= Oh god kill me I don't know anything. Art and Social Change. It sounded like the most interesting one, except it doesn't help if I don't know my history/politics. Also worried about this symposium thing O.o I thought it'd be two essays but hopefully the symposium should be alright... as long as I'm not the one doing the talking ^^;
My other unit, is an illustration class of some sort. I only chose it cos I wanted to build up my folio a bit, except only problem with class is the amount of briefs we have. I think there were 6? So once every fortnight really. It's a first year class so hopefully it'll mean lower expectations. So overall I'm thinking this might get a little hectic over the semester. I really hope I'll have some time to breathe cos it feels like I'm going to be stressing a lot this semester real bad T_____T So I apologise in advance if I won't be able to catch up or be as active with any of you guys cos I have to push through this last semester somehow. Still, feel free to talk to me online or something ^^;

xox Mei

Nearly been a month since my last post... I've just been dealing with a lot of family related stuff and it's kind of put me off talking to anyone really. It's hard to deal with so I've been trying to keep myself busy and staying over at other people's places to get away from it. Why do people take me for granted? As strong as I have been over the years, it's only going to be a matter of time before I can't take it all and just leave everything behind. Honestly feel like that could be the easiest option sometimes. But I don't want to be irresponsible so I'm going to do my best to get through this.
But I'm honestly considering moving out next year. The only problem is that I haven't figured out what I should do yet, so nothing is going to happen till I decide on that really. I envy those who still have a year of uni left; there's so much more I'd want to learn in my course... too bad it's only a 3 year course. There's always the option to study some more but I don't know. This would mean I'd know what I want to do and take it a step further. I still haven't researched any of the courses which I should if I do plan to study more. I'm thinking it unlikely though at this stage. I've never seen myself much of a business/career woman in the future. I have no passion in doing well in that sense. I like to learn, but who's going to pay you to learn? I want to be able to explore the world, the cultures, enjoy crafts... none of this would amount to anything substantial in a career sense. I know most people go through what I'm going through at the moment, but because it's personal this time, you realise how lost you feel. I wish people would stop asking what I plan to do next year, or remind me that this is my last semester though; I know so you don't have to keep telling me. I don't have a fucking clue okay. Why can't I enjoy the little freedom I'll have before I sign the rest of my life off to become part of the society? As our life expectancy grows higher, retirement age increases... We're going to have to spend more of our time to work our butts off just to support our lifestyle