Monday, November 18, 2013

Questionsss part I

1. List 20 10 random facts about yourself.
-I like sleeping flat on my stomach
-I'm a lot more girly than I was in school ie. I find it fun wearing make up and dressing up
-I probably like to reminisce a lot more than I should admit
-I'm constantly just going with the flow in life, with no goal other than to travel someday.
-I really like to sing, although sometimes I feel I can't do that nowadays because I live in such a small room
-One of my favourite disney movies is Hunchback of Notre Dame. I really like the songs.
-I probably ebay way too much than I should. But bargains!
-I love having dreams. Just last night I dreamt I was in a car that was driving on these big tracks, and the car drove up a very steep hill, almost vertical- and the car eventually started rolling backwards and did a back flip and landed on the tracks again and started climbing up and down like a rollercoaster. Was a thrilling dream.
-I never really sweared much at school but nowadays I'm more open to doing it, although I refrain when I can because those words always sound so harsh and foreign when I say it.
-I have the worst memory T_T

2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
-If I'm feeling a little bit spooked, I get really scared if I look into the mirror in the dark or see a big shadow cos I feel like something will start moving and be out to get me D: Just story of bloody mary that brought that on I think.
-Dropping any type of screen (ds, phone etc) this probably doesn't count as a legitimate fear but there is that heart stopping moment when you watch it fall and you can't react fast enough.
-Losing any of my possessions even if it's something as small as a box of mints etc. I don't know why I get so panicked over losing stuff, but my heart stops and starts beating really fast till I find what I was looking for, or I accept that I won't be able to find it.

3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
A bit hard to describe... Things have changed so much over a couple of years. Lots of hardships down the track, but since moving out, I think it's helped me feel less pressured into thinking that I have to look after my family financially etc. I wouldn't call it just amicable, maybe something a bit more than that, but still, I feel like because I've moved on, things just feel so different now.
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These will be for later, cos it took me so long to type the above. But better than nothing. :P


4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

I think I'm near that point in life when I just really want to move on with my life already. My job is such a life drainer, what little energy I have is used to sound enthusiastic to get me through the countless rejections from people all across Australia... It sort of saddens me to think that there are so many people who hate me for what I do; I mean I know they don't hate me specifically, but they have no where else to direct their anger so someone has to bear the brunt. I really do want to move on and get a proper job, but I don't have that enthusiasm to start my own projects etc. to be able to apply for a job. I'm a little scared that I'll end up stuck in the call centre, because there are a lot of people who work who have stayed on for several years and counting. I really don't want to be them. I don't know how they've managed to stay on so long- I don't know how I've managed so far. But I'm really think I need to step up my game. Jasper isn't any better than me either, we're both just stuck in a rut.
There are so many things I want to do; first and foremost, I of course want to be traveling, but after that I really want to be able to move out to a better place. After that, I think I'll feel less cluttered about my life and be willing to look for a proper job.

I'm really looking forward to December though, I'll be on holiday for a week at least in Victor Harbour, which I'm just longing for at the moment. And Jasper's friend has invited us to stay over at their parents villa in Thailand somewhere, which looks amazing. I'm willing to go, but I guess the problem is if Jasper can afford it. I think he tried convincing his mum to pay for it as a birthday/christmas thing, but that didn't work out... Well who knows. It would be sometime early next year though, so I'm still hoping >__<

Well I'll just leave it at that for now cos I have work in an hour :( Hopefully today's shift will go fast..