Plans to move out

It's been in the talks for a while with Jasper. I've been wanting to move out with him for a while, considering nearly all this year, I've been spending a majority of my time at his apartment. So I'm hoping to move out with him sometime in February. I know I know, why am I moving out when I'm not even financially secure? Look, I've thought about it a lot, and I'm not really a person to make really rash decisions. But logically, I should be able to find a job some time soon. I'm just not pushing myself hard enough. And on the off chance that I don't get a job before then, well, I guess I'll run on my savings. And Jasper has offered to pay as well T^T But of course, I'll do my best to get a job before that happens. Haven't found a place as of yet, but looking at a few small apartments currently. We're hoping to pay roughly 25o max per week together. So 125 per person. So if I get a job, that shouldn't even be too hard to make a living. I told my mum yesterday, which ended up with me in tears. Honestly cried for a good 20 or so minutes I think. She is very harsh with her words. Saying that I was ungrateful and how she more or less wish that my sisters and I didn't exist. There are some other stuff behind all this, but I'd rather not go in depth about it... But it's still unfair for her to say such harsh words and treat me the way she has considering what I've sacrificed. Paying for school fees does not justify everything. But anyway. After that, things went back to normal. I don't know what this means. But I've more or less got the support of my grandma, which admittedly is a little unexpected. But she thinks that if I'm moving in with Jasper, it should be alright. There are a lot of things to consider, and I can't say I'm fully prepared or organised about this. All of this is very new to me, and the fact that this has been organised last minute, and sort of reliant on me was unexpected. I had the expectation that Jasper would be the one who'd be organising it all from beginning to end. Well, no. I helped him look at a few places for rent, and apparently now I should go to do an inspection of some of these places. I'm a bit worried about that. What exactly am I meant to look out for? What am I meant to ask? What do I do if it's perfect, but there are also other people who want it? Is it first come first serve? What do I do?? Sigh. With all this stress about moving out, looking for a job, need to work on portfolio, thinking about parties in the weeks ahead... there are so much more to think about that I'm slightly over in my head.. I wish Jasper was here TT__TT