Freak out

I'm a little annoyed that I have two parties on the same day now =/ I thought it would be fine at first, assuming that I arrived a bit later for one of them. But, Jack said no, arrivals should be around 7-8pm cos he doesn't want people to arrive during the speeches :S And Devo's party starts at 7:30pm... so it's a really, really tight squeeze T___T Devo if you're reading this, I don't know if you got my messages, but if not I'll send you a fb message then.. But any chance of me arriving a bit earlier before 7:30? I think at this rate, I'll probably literally only stay for a few minutes because it'll take around half an hour to get to the other venue, assuming that I can convince my dad to take me to them (he comes back from China that very week, so lucky if he's willing!), otherwise it'd take me an hour and a half to get to the other venue by public transport, and that would be a big ask to travel at night in formal wear >.> I'm thinking of using cheesecake as a bribe for my dad if he's not willing to take me ^^; I swear, I always feel like I have to bribe my family somehow because they never seem to be willing to do anything for me T____T If Lucy asks for a ride, she gets one, when I ask, it's always mehhhh or annoyed looks. Seriously don't get that.
I don't want to miss anyone's birthday party this year as this year is full of 21st birthdays. If only the timing was better... Really don't want to only end up staying at Devo's party for just 5 mins though.. cos that's just sad. I mean, I've known her for longer than Jack, so really, Devo should take more priority... But Jack was sort of there at the end of last year, being a good friend when I was talking about Tristan (the guy who confessed to me over skype..) and then I found out this year that Jack also had a crush on me, only holding back because of Tristan... So I kind of want to be there because we've sort of become a bit distant ever since he found out I was going out with Jasper :/
Anyway, that's one of my main things I've been worrying about because I'm not 100% sure how to solve it yet :S Another thing is my assignments... I *still* haven't gotten down to business. Well not really. Ever since Tuesday's class, I haven't done anything. I tried this morning, tried looking for an artist's video my teacher suggested, but could not find it anywhere on the internet =/ Only managed to find snippets of it, but the main focus was on the curators who were discussing the work T_T So I'll have to figure my own interpretation of it, because I want to base my final outcome on it. Which is kind of weak, because I have nothing to go on, just making it up as I go along. I still haven't done enough research for it... good thing is that the teacher said we didn't have to annotate it, which is great ^____^ So I guess I'll just find a bunch of images and collage them a bit... probably need a good 10 or more pages..? Not sure because this folio is worth 100%... And maybe organise the images and stuff so it makes sense, sort of flows so you can see how I ended up with my outcome. Hmmmm. I really suck at this kind of stuff >.> Should be used to it by now, after doing years of folios. Website... Hmm let me go make a screenshot for you so you can see what I have at the moment.

That's my homepage. I still have to fix the green cos teacher didn't agree with it >.> I may have suggested that myself so the teacher also felt the need for me to change it.. damn it. It's been an impossible task to find a good green :/ He said that if I couldn't find a good green, go for something else. Like a blue. Ew no. That would look a bit strange if you ask me. Anyway, I've still got a lot of work to do.. I need to put everything I already have into wordpress somehow, so that the client can add posts and everything, and my style sheet will do the rest in organising the content and whatnot. I still have to design a few of the other pages, and add a donate page, include breadcrumbs and some other stuff that I think will make my head explode T____T Damn Mark asdfja;lkdlan ;ioawv'oe iowweof!?! You know what he said? I think he said that if we don't use wordpress, the highest mark you can get is a distinction T____T Which suckkksss cos making a normal site can be pretty hard in itself if you don't know what you're doing ( me TT____TT)
I really don't want to end up relying on Arend to help me for the website too much, cos I need to be more independent again with my learning and take more initiative in my own education. Cos you know, people aren't as nice in the real world and all >.> Hmmm. Well I've sort of made a plan for tomorrow. Get up at 8.30 am (So I need to sleep before 12 tonight! No exception!) Eat breakfast while watching something short... do some exercise (I've skipped about half a week T_T so might do a full hour to make up for it..). Should be around 10-11am around then, so I will start work. Soo... look for videos that I could use (videos of bodies or stuff exploding... diseases..zombies? Hmm not sure yet.) Find a few more images, and start to organise them better in my document. Rewrite the essay thing at the start for the documentation, make it longer so it looks like I've really thought about it ><" Ermm let's see what else... If I'm not bored of this assignment, I'll probably start cutting up collected videos and selecting parts of footage I want. After that, I reckon I'll finish off my documentation for my second brief for my other class. So that means more research, and maybe sneak in a few more sketches or something. Hopefully by the end of tomorrow, I will have already finished one my projects completely, allowing me to fully focus on the other two assignments. Ok so now I think I will try and conquer a few more chapters in Narnia before I go to bed in an hour or so. ^^; Long post is long ^^;