Happy New Year

Happy New Year!!! As we enter 2010, we are yet again faced with a whole new year to look forward to, a time which I hope to improve myself for the better. I can't believe time has gone by so fast that I've actually graduated for high school- I'm going to miss the same old routine for the past 6 years.
I'm not good with kind of stuff- thinking about the future etc. it really just worries me when I give it a second of thought. So I'll talk about something else. (I'll save warrnambool for later)

Okay, recently been invited to a few parties ( I'm sure you know) and it just annoys me whenever I see the times for them. Why does it always have to be at night??? It's probably very convenient for everyone else but it's always been a problem for me. I feel guilty asking my parents to drive me to this place and that. I know they're very tired all the time- waking up at 5 something and going to sleep late at night, getting only around 6 hrs sleep after a hard day of work.. I know this because of all the times I had to wake up with them to go to work, and I didn't have to stand and work for such long hours. So driving there and then picking me up that late would probably just make them feel even more tired..

You know, I've always wanted to become more independent. I've never really thought myself as being independent, always feeling the need to rely on others. But once my sister said that I was independent, I was kind of surprised. Now when I think about it, I've always tried to do things by myself, trying to make things easier for others if possible. But sometimes I feel that with no one to talk to, I lack the self confidence to keep going. It's my own fault really, I've never really tried to become good friends with anyone, probably just distancing myself away from everything...

Personally I feel blogging does help lessen the stress I always feel, it feels nice to just keep typing. I hope that this can help others understand me better, as this is probably the easiest way for me to interpret my feelings with others. With time, I'll eventually let go of whatever is in my heart and I hope that my friends will always be here. :)