Just an Observer

I happen to observe things in life, picking up things I believe that no one else has notice, fairly sensitive to people's reactions but don't say anything; I'm just a bystander. I can't help but feel excluded a lot, whether it be my own fault or not, but these things happen in life. I like to believe that I know what another person is thinking, after reacting to what I've said or done. Some sort of catalyst perhaps, something that can affect everything surrounding me. I'm a terrible person; even if I realize something is wrong, I don't know what to do or just hope it goes away, never having anyone to by my side to share my true thoughts and feelings; it feels like it's all a lie. I just want to leave the urban life and live a life staring up into the sky while everyday slowly passes by. Not having to worry about what other people think about me, not having to worry about my future, not having to worry about anyone else. How can I achieve this impossible dream....