The Next Stop

I don't get it. Why do people like to shop for clothing so much? How is it my fault that I don't know what to buy? My parents have totally stuffed up when they raised me, I swear I'm just some sort of experiment. I was always given clothes from the factory that they used to work at, or from grandma's trip to china. It has only been recently since I've stepped into a shop to buy some sort of clothing for the first time. The whole process of shopping is embarrassing. If i've ever been shopping with you, you would probably notice that i just stand there and kinda shadow you. I'm sorry for freaking you out. It's just awkward because it's not like I go shopping with friends like you see on tv. I guess my sisters wouldn't have the same problems as me, seeing as they're younger and all, with different types of friends.
Having been brought up sheltered in a somewhat cultural family, I probably don't even know the basic things, and me, being the oldest, I have to be the first one to do all the experiencing. I hate being the oldest. There are so many things I want to say but don't dare to..I wish I could just escape all this for a little while.